Several months ago, in the midst of the craziness that had taken over my life, a friend gave me the newest Hilary Weeks cd -
If I Only Had Today. The inspired words and melodies gave me comfort and became a source of strength for me in spite of the uncertainty that had come to plague our family. One song especially connected with me, and when my husband finally, after all of these agonizing months, received that phone call with an official job offer from a reputable, secure company, I immediately thought of these lyrics and knew that God had heard our prayers...
It's been raining for days with no sign of it letting up
And all I can think about is how much I miss the sun.
The sound is almost hypnotizing, pounding on the pavement
And drop by drop I forget how good the sun feels on my face.
Then through the shadows, beyond the clouds
A ray of light hits my window.
I can't believe it, but I can see it
Right in front of my eyes.
And that's when it happens
When you least expect it
When it feels like the storm will never end
That's when it happens
Light cuts through the darkness
And Heaven surprises you
When you least expect it.
I quit counting the hours I've prayed for answers
But I can't help wondering how long I will have to wait.
And why is Heaven silent while I'm running out of words?
I keep on knocking but nobody hears me standing at the door.
Then through the shadows, beyond the doubt
Heaven sends the answer.
I can't believe it, but I can feel it
Deep inside of my heart
And that's when it happens
When you least expect it
And you know God has heard every prayer
That's when it happens
Love breaks through the darkness
And Heaven surprises you
When you least expect it...
Even now, it all still seems surreal. Finding a nice family to rent our home (definitely divine intervention), packing up our house, receiving the job offer (along with a relocation package that we were not expecting AT ALL -
that's why we were able to join Pat in AL so quickly), having everything go haywire the last week in VA (sick kiddos during recital week while I'm staying at my brother's house -
need I say more?), watching Abby perform in her last Shuffles recital (at least for a while), saying goodbye to my family (they were all there with cards, treats, gifts, and big hugs to send us on our way last Sunday morning), even the ten and half hour drive seemed to float by as we made our way to Alabama. (The kids were troopers doing it all in one day. Thank goodness for portable DVD players.)
Yes, it's been an emotional couple of weeks. (I'm sure it will be for awhile.) Yes, I have felt somewhat out of my element. And yes, there are still a lot of loose ends that need tying, but I know that Heavenly Father is watching over us. I know that He hears our prayers, and I have faith that this is where our little family is supposed to be right now. I'm not sure why yet,
but I can feel it, deep inside of my heart.